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Saturday, August 18, 2007
no room for malaise, just ecstasy. 11:30 PM
hmm, couldn't write not unless there's a burst of emotion... there is, i guess, at this moment.. but i'm not about ranting and being maudlin i think is over. not because i already got what i want, nor because i can feel that he still loves me.but because, i think, i'm regaining what i've lost and i'm learning to feel my completeness, thanks to my friends who have always been there to listen and understand my irrationality.
i'm uberly happy as you can see. i just got to talk to him. and i guess that's all i really needed. i don't really care if he belongs to someone else, which is absurd, it's not as if he's married already. haha. what? we're just friends... i guess? yuck, ok so i feel for him. ok, so i LOVE him!! so what? [ok, i better stop being a hypocrite!] ok yah! I LOVE HIM, and he makes me soo happy. and he could make me soo mad, he could make me soo jealous, and yah, he can make me soo sad, but as like zien has told me, i can't deny that he can really compliment my completeness. for short, he makes dull to colourful and inspiring.
aww, lagi kaming hindi nagkakasabay mag-online. ano buh!! i've been waiting for HIM! for FOREVER!! kasi wrong timing palage! hmpf... well, we talked about stuffs, not really about us in particular. he asked about david, but i never asked about joanne, hehe takot pa ako masaktan. i don't wanna hear what he has to say about her. i just want the blissful feeling to last.
what is he up to?? hehe, ang kulit sobra. we've been playing around with this doodles:) he's using the blue crayon, and i use the yellow one.
what is he up to?? hehe, ang kulit sobra. we've been playing around with this doodles:) he's using the blue crayon, and i use the yellow one.
[on the process, seriously thinking. being very careful of every moves. nahhhh, we're just having fun. i missed this. i missed spending too much time for him.]
[haha, malapit na matapos, and as you can see, im losing!! haha] 
[yah, he won. but it was a close fight though. i got 17 and he got 18. haha... man, i so love him...]drawing mode:
[wiwi? haha, i was wrong. it was a donut daw!! NILALANGGAM. hahaha. he can really make me laugh. i just wanna hug and kiss him at this instance!!] 
[don't ask me what this picture is. haha. i don't know where he got the idea. hahaha. seriously i got no idea what this is. pero according to him, it's a long *toot, hahahahaha!!] 
[aww, i love the person who owns this name. and by the way it reads the same even if you flip it upside-down.:)] hai. i'm so happy today. got to spend time with my father. got to talk to my friends, even if i kind of ditched them because we were suppose to go to alabang town today, but because of the heavy rain and since jay is online, duh, i wouldn't change that for anything else. waaa, and i kind of turned down my dad nga ren e, because he was forcing me to watch bourne ultimatum but because i was talking to jay, i told him that we could like watch it tommorow nalang.:)
you don't know how much you made my day today. haha. even if i was feeling kind of dizzy for some reason i don't know. you served as my placebo. wakeke. hope i can still chat with you tomorrow.
goodnight y'all!:) have a pleasant dreams!:)
You are everything i wanted,
and more...