philopopsicle once exclusive, now accessible to anyone. don't convince yourself that just because you have read some of my bloggerings, it doesn't necessarily follow that you already know me as a person. most of the words written here are just a burst of an immense emotion that needs to find a decent way of break through. i may not write well as you think you do but what the hell, it is my blog. and for those who appreciate, gratitude is my sincere shot.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
i'm gonna be great 3:33 PM
yesterday night i was so envious because i have this couple of friends which as i can see are very much in love. the girl is my barkada, and the guy which i happened to know long time ago before they even met. so the scenario was the girl was learning how to drive and her boyfriend was the one who is teaching her how to, it was funny how they scolded, argued, and screamed at each other but at the end of the day they ended up more in love. huhu where the effing hell is my knight?? yuck i sound so desperate... it's not that i am in a hurry, it's just that whenever i see scenarios like this, i tend to have this awkward feeling, it's the same as seeing your two friend making out in front of you. i know! you tend to be envious! haha... am i the only one who get to have this feeling? haha. it's as if you would like to ignore just by looking and as if it doesn't bother you at all or at the back of your mind you have to turn around and DON'T see what's going on... oh well, lucky for them they already found each other and suck-y for me i have to deal with friends making out in front of me... haha.
so now i'd just wait, imagine how my knight could be: he'd probably be my long time friend, who is clever but has few and exact words used as building blocks and not as battering rams, the most gentle and amiable but has strong force of character, enough to protect me, i bet he'd also be the most thoughtful and caring person, enough for others and outflowing for me, i also bet he knows how to play guitar and serenade me as an expression of honor, respect, and love, he must also be trustworthy with outflowing thoughts that are remarkable and noble, and most of all i'd bet he's the most sensitive guy who knows when to render an advice and knows when to just sit for a quiet support. he sound so perfect... but i hope he exists.
...and if ever my knight comes, i know i am gonna be the great-EST. :)
You are everything i wanted,
and more...
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
exhausted. 10:27 AM
so let me do some math here...
15% of my happiness is you
85% of my happiness are my family, friends, and everything else
60% of my sorrow is you
40% of my sorrow are something else
so tell me, how will i balance something like that? i have never been in a relationship, or an invisible relationship where in i have to deal with so much pain and sadness. i might act tough as a response through the hardship that i am going through and as much as i wanted to hold on and bear up through the pain, i am afraid that some time soon my heart will be that hard and tough and that i might never let my Knight come in it.
you might think you know so much about taking care of a person... by how exactly? you have filled my heart with so much doubt and now i end up being distrustful. you have told me hurtful words and now i end up telling all of this, words that might wake you up from your insanity. you ignored me and so i treated you as if you are not existing. and now here you are ranting about how i never give an effort of taking care of you when you implanted too much pain on me, what do really expect in return? i don't do magic dear...
i have a lot of hurtful things to say but i do believe that if there is nothing good to be said about, it is better to shut it up... so now i have no more words to utter...
i might have said that i love you but i've never said that I WANT YOU.
[happy birthday Zienee! :)]
You are everything i wanted,
and more...
Thursday, October 23, 2008
sincere apology; but in a ranting mode 12:02 PM
okay. so it is really my fault that i forgot to tell you to bring identification cards and for hyping your expectations that i wasn't been able to satisfy and please. But the fact that it's an identification card that you must always bring with you, you think it's really my fault? i am not saying this just because i wanted me out-of-the-hook but because i am so bothered that you are treating me wrongfully for the thing i never really meant to do, so now i am writing here trying also my best to convince my self that this is not entirely my fault.
so for those who never replied to my SMS and for those who do not understand and for those who are treating me like i am invisible all i can say is: SO YOU'RE REALLY MAD BECAUSE OF THAT? oh well. all i can say is that i am glad that at this point i have seen who really understood and now i understand why they are so LUCKY and BLESSED.
have a good day to all.
You are everything i wanted,
and more...
Saturday, October 18, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO: 12:03 AM
greetings to my October Babies!! haha
1. Mia Bianca Lerum [Oct 15]
2. Ancel Joseph Litong [Oct 15]
3. Anna Marie Rae Toldoya [Oct 17]
4.Zharie Galano [Oct 22]
5. Rozelle Avelino [Oct 27]
6. Krizienne Lyn Cruz Santos [Oct 28]
LOVE YOU ALL :)
You are everything i wanted,
and more...
Thursday, October 16, 2008
SEMBREAK it is :) 11:10 AM
ohhhh babies babies babies :)
WATCH THESE:
You are everything i wanted,
and more...