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Saturday, June 19, 2010
Happy Dad's Day 4:31 PM
I knew that it's gonna be difficult for me especially my dad wouldn't be around most of these times now. But I never knew it's gonna be excruciating really. I'm starting to loathe my mother. Really. Sometimes I really don't even wanna think about her. She makes simplest things so hard for me. It's difficult than it is already and sometimes I just wanna stop and pause and cry my fucking ass out. She's really getting into my last freaking nerves. MOST OF THE TIMES I miss cramming home just to see my Daddy because he completes my day :( Now I don't even wanna go home really. Because even if you work your ass out and make the floor shine like a fucking mirror nothings gonna be good enough for her. Fucking exhausting. I also miss my daily conversation with my father wherein I tell him what happened to me all day and like wise and now I barely even talk to him and hide every experience with my mom because I wouldn't want him to worry and that's the last thing I would want to give my Dad… a head ache :( I also miss how I save my weekends to spend with my Daddy because now I just wanna be dead busy because there's nobody worth the time I could ever spend with the greatest friend… :'( I also miss eating with my Daddy because no matter how I don't like the food It makes me wanna spend the whole day in front of the table because there's nothing greater than spending it with my father just in front of me telling me something very valuable :( I just really miss my Daddy so much. And I wish I can do something so that I can hug and kiss him on this very special day :( I wish I could have spent more time before I left. I imagine how it would really help just to have him around. :(
And now, I am trying to contain everything even the most painful things because of my Daddy. I would do anything for my Dad. That's how he inspire my every being. I could take anything for my Dad. I just hope I could really spend this day with him just to motivate me… But for sure the greatness of his love for us will keep on burning. Never less. Never gonna fade.
And to the GREAT-EST FATHER
Happy DADDY's Day my Super Love
I love you so much. I will make up for your greatness…. One of these days :)
HAPPY FATHER's DAY TO ALL.
Hug them for as long as they're there :)
You are everything i wanted,
and more...
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
It's as if time flies to fast here 11:53 AM
Friday: Six Flags Magic Mountain
Saturday: Went to a prayer meeting + Lector-ed for a novena (since I don't have voice) + Ate/ Grilled at our pad with friends
Sunday: Responsorial + Movies with friends
Monday: Memorial Day...
yup memories...
Time flies so fast here that I remembered it has been 2 months since I left. And because few of the most important people in my life messaged me as hell then IT WAS A DAY TO WALK ON THE MEMORY LANE... And I just miss them so much. To YOU my friend, the reason why I wasn't reading your messages is because I was saving it for the days that I would be hell dead sad... But when you serve the Lord you wouldn't feel any of that pala.. It's as if He fills everything that is missing. But sometimes you wouldn't escape the fact that you really face problems and that you desperately miss somebody/ some people...
To my numero uno best amigo, I really wish you could come here. I know you've been longing to tell me your stories and you know I feel the same way too... You don't know how I utter your name most of the times even if nobody knows you. It's just different when you are here... somebody to tell my stories and like wise. So yeah, I heard you've been having too much fun! Watch out you might get caught! Value the people who value you most, you wouldn't wanna lose them. Be very careful. You would't wanna realize one day that you've lost your everything and everything else are all fucked up just because you would wanna explore something and forcing your self to believe that there is really something going on. So yeah. I just wanna tell you to put your career first and everything else will follow. I really wish the best for you. You are the one person I would really wanna be happy because you deserve it more than anybody else :) I got all psyched up that you are now really planning to go here because the last time you weren't really convinced at all... I really hope to see you soon!!
And to my Daddy, Urgh you are my saviour and my best-est friend and my perfect man. I just really miss you as hell. My prayers always embraces you.
And to my ONE and ONLY. My super friend and my LIFE PARTNER, you don't know how much I would do anything for the both of us. Sometimes I envy the people who could be together that easy but hey we're not here for the easy... We're made for the tough and bliss. We'd make hard kiss our asses. I've decided that we wouldn't be "The sweetest love that got away" like what you used to mention before "We'd be the greatest love that conquered" I'm not worried that you might find other love and I might consider any because I know the fact that nothing will compare to what we shared and what there is to come... Like what I've told you... We'd enjoy the times the world makes us yearn for each other because I am going to make us work and we'd be together for the rest of our lives. You know me. I never say things like this, not when I am certain and not if I want it so bad...
GOODNIGHT! :)
You are everything i wanted,
and more...