philopopsicle once exclusive, now accessible to anyone. don't convince yourself that just because you have read some of my bloggerings, it doesn't necessarily follow that you already know me as a person. most of the words written here are just a burst of an immense emotion that needs to find a decent way of break through. i may not write well as you think you do but what the hell, it is my blog. and for those who appreciate, gratitude is my sincere shot.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
never to be forgotten. 5:58 AM
You are everything i wanted,
and more...
Monday, December 15, 2008
my heart in million pieces 10:28 PM
it's so surprising how i finally decided to just go and try to leave everything that burdens me behind. hopefully i would be able to find peace in a place second to my home...
awhile ago i was crying my way to school because i haven't been able to let the loads out of my chest, and i can't take the fact that i'd be celebrating my favorite season of the year with out the most important people in my life, and be having to deal that the person who tore my heart into million pieces just standing a meter away from me, and just staring at me slowly die...
i'm happy that i'd be in a place where my family is, but at the same time i am sad that i wouldn't be able to spend it with some of the few people who meant to me more than they ever know... and most of all, it hurts me so much that my heart still scream for that very same person who it thinks is its life support... it's fearful for it's forcefully separated to the jerk it beats for...
and and, i am sad for i haven't been able to spend some time with the person who i have always shared my pains with... the person who knew that this bloggering is my only way to reveal my mind, my heart, and my soul...the person who always pushed me to be strong and that i can get through all of these, the person who always opened this site just to catch up on me. you know i greatly appreciate everything you do for me my best friend :) just for listening to me whenever i run to you when everything else fails me. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. i pray that you may have the greatest Christmas as always and may more blessings come your way! i love you and i'll miss you together with my kgemjelltels :)
~lagot ka saken kasi bubulabugin kita every chance i get :)
SEASON's GREETINGs :) and WELCOME to my STRAWBERRY FIELDS (:
You are everything i wanted,
and more...
Monday, December 8, 2008
i just have to blurt 10:54 PM
i am not some guinea pig you test your theories and hypotheses with. i think i deserve even just a little respect from you. i have fucking tried so hard to communicate with you, and this is what i get. i thought you deserve better than before, but i guess i should have followed my firsthand instinct. you don't see any of my effort so what's the use of change? NOTHING CAN MAKE YOU BE SENSITIVE ENOUGH ANYWAYS. i have tried, you could have valued it. and now i'm tired. so just kiss my ass.
You are everything i wanted,
and more...