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Monday, August 13, 2007
rest 3:11 AM
taena! man, that gurl is uberly lucky:( she can be with jay whenever she wanted..:( never ever felt so envious in my entire life existence,,:( urgh,,don't wanna expect anymore, it just hurts me. hai mistakes,, once done, is acceptable, more than that is stupidity.. yah, whatever. whatever. waaaa, i am so conflicted!! i'm so tired, every day i want to be uberly and exaggeratedly tired. because when i'm tired, i tend to fall a sleep easily. as much as possible i don't really wanna think of you because it just break my heart. haha, ang tragic ng ending. the one who cheated and dared to leave the other is the one who wanted the other back. i know i deserve this, but until when will i pay for it? for lifetime?? hai sana wag naman, i'd go crazy. i wanna leave him alone. pero other part of me doesn't want to. i still wanna hang on. but then i realized, how will i hang on? i have no one/nothing to hold on too anymore. he already walked away and saved and made someone else happy.
i'm nearly worn out. i'm almost reaching my limit. maybe, i'd take a rest first. and one day if i'm too lucky enough you'd save and repair me.:) hai, i can't wait.
You are everything i wanted,
and more...