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Tuesday, July 17, 2007
when we broke up 1:27 PM
yah, sige sabihen na naten that i lied, kasi sinabi ko sayo na hindi kami nagusap ni david nung araw na yun. i was scared, i thought i really loved him. i was thinking about him all day since nung thursday. i regret that i left you again, ang hirap talaga pag wala ka saken ngayon, this is the hardest transition of my life, hon, we grew up together for 3 years and i have been uberly dependent on you. pero nung time na yun i don't know what was really going on. i needed someone to love me and will be there for me. na-catalize pa nung nakita ko yung picture ni joanne. i was so depressed, you know me sometimes i'm bugnuten. i wasn't thinking very well that time i admit. and all of this is my fault i know. that day david wasn't really talking to me, kaya i was alarmed, akala ko love na yung naramdaman ko.
i know, hindi mo na ako makilala, dahil sa lahat ng mga pinag-gagagawa ko. pero jay i am still me. i need you. this is the worst of me.
all i can say is: i was wrong, i'm sorry, i'm not perfect, i was unfaithful, but i love you, and sometimes you have to be at your w.o.r.s.t. to be at your b.e.s.t.
You are everything i wanted,
and more...