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Tuesday, September 18, 2007
hope we are cool 7:00 PM
sleep read sleep read sleep.
i've been feeling the exhort to read books! i just wanna read. relax. drink coffee. go to barnes & noble and spend my whole day there. if only i got so much time. i want to finish the zahir :/
aww... not a very good day for me. test in all subjects (healthcare, microbiology, and pol gov) except english; because our professor did not attend our class. how cool is that? and i guess i fail all the said subjects because i didn't get the chance to study. excruciating. hehe. whatever. i need lots of luck...
but i guess it's still a good day for me. no irritating feeling. excluding the part when kuya nikko woke me up because our next professor is inside the room already. darn, wrong timing. i rarely get sleepy, and when i was able to get my sweet slumber already i only got interrupted by some bull****. urgh.
well anyway, thanks for the toblerone mr. ancel joseph taotjo litong *grins* zien ate a part of it, she loves chocolates, haha!
oh well, back to serious mode. umm to the person who i think i've been acting weirdly lately towards to. i'm so sorry, the gestures are involuntary, i don't want to act this way but i can't deny that i feel something awkward. it's just that i've been hearing stuffs lately and i really really don't know how to react on it. no madness or anger involve, believe me. we're "mares" no harsh feelings, it's just that it really feels awkward on my part. i hope you understand what i am talking about. i knew the "thing" for a long time already, and i have not felt this feeling before, i swear. we're good this past few days naman diba? i just felt the awkward feeling yesterday. it's just that i've been hearing stuffs and i don't know how to deal with the situation. just place yourself in my position. my friend and and the person that i HAD a past with. situation still fresh. to tell you honestly, i should be out of this already, i'm in no position to oppose neither of both sides. i'm just adjusting to the situation. pardon me if i acted weird lately, still adapting to the situation. and you do not have to tell me what you feel. whatever it is, i respect it, and whatever it is, please, i just want to be out of it. and if you are worrying about what i would think, don't be. in time i'll get the hang of the situations. again i'm sorry. and i hope you're not mad at me too.
don't really want to write this here, because i wouldn't like jay to read this and think of something else again. i'm in a very critical situation now. i'm trying to regain a person's trust. and if ever you are reading this, don't worry about stuffs, it's nothing. nothing to be worried about. everything is cool...
peace out ya'll :)
tangsinul sarang ha yo naujil :)
[korean mode. haha]
You are everything i wanted,
and more...