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Monday, September 3, 2007
i want my book back. 6:14 PM
this day is fine. no, actually it was GOOD. why? because i saw classmates that i missed for three days, i got a grade of 84 in statistics, hey, that's high enough already. i was expecting a line of seven grade. i flunk my midterm exam ok. i only got a raw score of 24 over 60, how cool is that? everything was ok until i lost my book. tss... awww, i love that book even if it's ripped off already. my microbiology book! i want it back! i feel so mad. never ever entrust your belongings to other people, they will never make it as their PRIORITY. they would just leave it somewhere and never take responsibility for losing it. i just want my book back!
well anyway. ever felt the feeling of having to conceal what you truly feel. act and pretend as if nothing is happening? yah. i know, it SUCKS! big time. you have to show everybody that you're a-ok even if deep down you would just want to break down and cry your heart out. sucky.
(conversation with my mom)
marlyn1564: hello ms. Beautiful
marlyn1564: how are you doin
jhoi_gitsa: heyness
jhoi_gitsa: im good
marlyn1564: no you,re not i can sense
marlyn1564: wasup baby
jhoi_gitsa: hehe
jhoi_gitsa: huala
see what i am talking about?!oh well, urgh, don't know where mom's get that clairvoyant ability. amazing huh? but still you have to act as strong as you can be, but sometimes you also have to be true to what you feel. i know it's contradicting but i guess we'll get the hang of it.
(continuation of our conversation)
marlyn1564: for you not to get HURT don't fall inlove yet
marlyn1564: let them fall in love with you
jhoi_gitsa: hehe.. yah nga..e kaso may nagsstand out e.
marlyn1564: anyway am not worried about dat coz from there you'll grow
marlyn1564: love you
marlyn1564: don't be silly baby take things easy
jhoi_gitsa: i know
marlyn1564: i emailed you something
marlyn1564: try to take a look
jhoi_gitsa: chcheck ko
marlyn1564: alis na ako baby
marlyn1564: wrk na ako
marlyn1564: bye love you all
jhoi_gitsa: ok ok
jhoi_gitsa: bye
jhoi_gitsa: yngat
jhoi_gitsa: love you mama
(e-mailed message from my mom)
To my beautiful lady,
I know what are you going through right now. Am sad because it is painful but am happy as well, because it's the start of growing..BE STRONG and take it easy. I wanna share you what I read about falling.. when Jesus fall the 1st time he said "Do not be discourage for I the Lord your God, am with you"...the 2nd time He said "Happy is the person who remains faithful in times of trials..." 3rd time he said "Those who trust in Lord will be renewed with strength." You are silent but I can sense what's in your heart and mind.. that's a mother instinct..That's how to fall in love, but if you don't want PAIN THE SECRET IS NOT TO FALL IN LOVE OKEY... TAWA KA NAMAN DYAN... DAMI NYAN D2. I Love You
we all need motivating words to keep us going, and i'm thankful that my mom is there to give one. mothers i love
most especially my mommy! i love you mah :)
You are everything i wanted,
and more...