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Monday, September 17, 2007
kill without any reason 7:50 PM
i'm not like this before. many things have changed around me lately. i normally sleep early and feel sleepy at school all the time, but now i don't (yes, i'm talking about sleep again.) then, i've been acting as cold as ice, i feel grudges that i don't know where i got. my mind is out of focus all the time. i'm becoming so jittery. shees. i am not taking drugs ok! hehe. and lately, i've been feeling the urge to kill. [now i know what sam feels.] yeah baby. [just follow what miss dizon advised, stab a pillow to death to lessen the urge to kill, haha!]i've been thinking of ways on how to kill and believe me i'm finding it fun. haha. haiz. [ok don't be so afraid of me ok, i'm still sane, i swear, i guess?] anyways, aww, i really wanted to be an assassin. kill someone with no reason at all. just to lighten up the feeling.
yesterday my dad and i went out to watch movie. dadi is a love. and we watched 2 movies in a row. [di naman kami sabik manood.] we watched Rogue Assassin by Jet Li and The Brave One by Jodie Foster. I loved it both because it has something to do with killing. haha. "bebeh! i really wanted to be an assassin!"
(SPOILER ALERT! don't read if you would want to watch Rogue Assassin and The Brave One)
anyhoo, back to the movies, in Rouge assassin, i loved the part when Jet Li and some leader of Yakusa? were fighting, love the blood all over the place. i love the bombings.and i love the wheels, so awesome [shees. i sound like a terrorist] but honestly, i've been really feeling the urge. i also loved The Brave One and at the same time annoyed, because i really wanted to cry but then i was with my dad so i can't do so, or else he'd laugh at me, and the funny part is that i can't look at the "sexy-time" scenes because it's just so awkward, my parent watching me watch a bed scene. nah. never mind. the sucky part also in the movie is that the boyfriend of jodie foster died, yeah, very tragic. oh men i wouldn't know what to do if that happened to me too, watching yourself and your boyfriend being beaten up to death, i would also seek for revenge and i'd kill the murderers my self. in faireness jodie was good in shooting huh. sapul talaga. hahaha. she's so vengeful in the movie, and really brave by the way, if i were her i don't know if i could go out of the house alone again, but on the second thought, I'D STILL WANNA KILL!
You are everything i wanted,
and more...