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Saturday, September 15, 2007
no please, not insomnia 10:44 PM
lately i can't really fall in sleep. i really don't know why. i'm not bothered by problems or whatsoever, it's just that i really can't sleep. what the hell is wrong with me? the earliest time i could be able to sleep is 11:30, which is by the way "forced." yep. i force it, because who would want to go to school all wasted and sleepy? and the latest time i could sleep is 3. tsss. some of my friends are already advising me to DRINK. yea yea, good depressant, but i don't want to get used to it. tss, never mind... some of them are telling me to tire my self to death, but guess what, that is NOT effective for me. i'd still wouldN'T be able to sleep even if i run the whole day. it just doesn't work for me. urgh, this is sucky. my body clock is not serving it's purpose. i just want my normal sleeping routine.
sleep sleep sleep.
that's what i WANT and NEED. pfff. and by the way, the sucky part about my body is that when i do something which is tiring and boring i tend to get so dizzy sleepy but when i'm about to sleep already, all the sleepy feeling just fade so fast. i hate it. could this be insomia? watcha think? oh well, need to fix my body clock.
from now on, i'd start sleeping early. aww, i need motivation. in this case, i'm not yet drinking any stimulant like coffee, just imagine if i drink one pah, haha, i just can imagine how i could not be able to feel drowsy all night long. aww, this "disease" is going to kill me. these zits and eyebags. suckkky.
any suggestion you guys?
i just want a soporific sweet slumber.
hayyyyy...
[tagalog mode]
aww.. andami kong namimiss. miss ko na yung classrooms! i don't wanna see the community "Pugad Lawin" again. sheesh. all we did today is non sense. wala kaming ginawa as in literal. we just wasted ink and paper for that stupid graphs, tables, analyses, and interpretation, all into waste. tsk tsk. those clinical instructors are so ilogical. they've let us do the draft without the final tabulations. how is that? urgh. pathetic.
ohhhh.. random thoughts, i can't write anyting with sense now. awwww, it's been long since i last wrote, and i guess the world have seen how mad i am with the latest entry before this [scroll down]. yeah. madness. i'm not good towards "you know who," but who cares? tsss.
*akala ko ba tagalog mode? tae... i can't be able to express my self in tagalog, it's just so hard.
why just write now? errrr. this is the only time i could write. love love love. after this entry i'd be writing a "speech" which has something to do with Values of Filipino Nurse In An Era of Globalization. thoughts are rushing in my mind, still jotting down ideas to be constructed. wuts else people? aww... i miss a lot of people. like zienee which i haven't seen for a while... errr. the terrific trio. wala pa tayo food trip and gala lately. i miss going to mall hahaha! it's been long since i last went to mall of asia, which by the way is just a jeep away from school. i miss mcdonald's float! i miss watching movie. hopefully my dad and i could watch movie today. hehe
i've changed the layout. enough of the sappy entries. i guess i'm ok na. i'm happy because because BECAUSE. wala lang! i'm just happy:)
ich liebe dich NAUJIL :)
[naging taglish mode, hehe.]
You are everything i wanted,
and more...