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Thursday, September 6, 2007
ohhh please... 8:19 PM
urgh. i have given so much chance already. it's never my fault if my heart beats for someone else. all i can think about is him. conscious and unconsciously. i don't deserve to be called as "shit", tss. oww, enough of that. i'm getting tired of it. i'm happy on where i am right now. i couldn't ask for anything else. and don't brag that you can move on easily but you choose not to. don't say it, do it. ok? sorry if i was being harsh and rude to you. i am doing this because i wanted to keep distance and i wanted you to do so too. this is the only way for you to stay away from me. i want you to stay away from me because i already know who i want. and i'd do everything to protect and reserve my self for the person i really love. and besides i know you, you will never stop not unless i show you a barrier and if i show you kindness you'll just mistaken it for another opportunity again. enough of all the assumptions.
[lesson learned:]
be very sure on what you want before you act on it. think about it a million times. and never try something else when the answer is very OBVIOUS.
i'm ranting here because what you did is not right. now i'm regreting things. you threw zien's book on me and told me that i ruined your day, but i let it slip because i understand it was partially my fault too. i somewhat agitated you. but this time, it's too much. you have already proven it to me once, don't prove it to me again...
anyways,
for me and my friends who got a very dispiriting grades in all the subjects this semester of midterms, don't lose hope. i still believe we can do it this finals. just think of it this way, all of this is just a challenge, and hey we have to start from something low y'all. it's better to have an ascending grades than descending one, right? do we agree? and as what jay told me, it's not about how many times and how bad we fall, it's about how we stand up and face challenges again. WE CAN DO IT!:) i know we are all smart people of BSN II-3. we can do better this time, if we'd just help ourselves. we have to say goodbye to gimiks, bars, parties, and galas first. we have to concentrate and focus most of our attention and time to our studies. KNOW THY PRIORITIES FIRST. let's help each other in attaining our goals.
aja GOALGETTERS!:)
You are everything i wanted,
and more...