Saturday, September 1, 2007
second step for both of us 5:52 PM
"i'm loving the feeling of loving you and i don't want to step out of my comfort zone yet." i've taken so much risk, i even lost you twice and i haven't recovered yet from all the things that i've lost. i have no plans of moving yet...
your second step is to WAIT, and since i am sure of my feelings already, i have to prove it to you. and for my second step as you've suggested me, we'll see if this feeling would last or fade. this is the best way to handle our situation. let's take things slow. we have so much time. i guess...
awww. namromroblema ako. yoko pa punta states. i still want to see you. but i have no choice but to follow my parents. if ever i'd stay this december there for good, i really don't know when i could be able to see you again. i'm so scared when i'm far from you. if you only know... hai. mahaba habang hintayan nanaman to...
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ex-girlfriend
i have been a very LOUSY girlfriend. why?
because:
- i forget to text you sometimes, to ask how you were doing.
- i asked for more when you gave me too much.
- i am very hard headed
- i've not tried to let you meet my dad because i was so afraid that he'd be mad.
- i've never been able to be there for you and yet i ask you to be here more often. tss.
- i've doubted your love for me when i was the one who left you.
i don't know what i did more besides all these. no wonder you've been so fed up that you don't want any of me anymore.
i'm sorry if i wasn't able to give you everything that you needed. fcuk. i'm just so weak. forgive me.
You are everything i wanted,
and more...
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