philopopsicle once exclusive, now accessible to anyone. don't convince yourself that just because you have read some of my bloggerings, it doesn't necessarily follow that you already know me as a person. most of the words written here are just a burst of an immense emotion that needs to find a decent way of break through. i may not write well as you think you do but what the hell, it is my blog. and for those who appreciate, gratitude is my sincere shot.
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
that arrogant son of a bee-otch 7:29 PM
[CAUTION: pardon me for all the uncongenial phrases and words. if you don't want to hear craps because you're too holy or whatever, just depart my site. thank you.]
stop overbearing your self-worth. you're worthless for us. if not just because you make / create our grades... hell, we wont give a damn about you. ENGINEER? oh please. where did you even graduated? all you can teach is crap. all you've shown us from the beginning of this Basic Statistics class is your SUPERCILIOUSNESS. what the fcuk! you're not even qualified as a professor what makes you think you're so superior? stop living by your title. to tell you honestly, IT DOESN'T SUIT YOU! i don't even think you passed the board exam and have a license. all you do is brag. if you're that so scintillating why do you have to teach? why don't you just go and operate engines? or manage an enterprise? (i don't have anything against engineers, it is just that that stupid jerk is ruining the creditable title of engineers and my dad is an engineer too.) why teach?!? you don't teach effectively. we don't need your blabs. we need to learn. teach us something. urgh. i so loathe you! where on the earth can you see a professor who only say discouragement for his students? all he can say is "if you can't pass Basic Statistics, well then i guess we'll see each other again next year." and also he keep on saying that he wanted us to fail. shit talking. why don't you start educating? because we're fed up of your boasting. i wouldn't wanna waste time dealing with airhead "professors" and waste money that my parents are working hard for. hell with you! asshole!
this is my site. i write to express and not to persuade nor convince. i just use this as an out-let towards my storm of emotions. i am only giving you the freedom to read through my mind and you're free to jot any opinions, but judgements? i don't need it. better keep it to yourselves.
what is written is written. i won't change a thing. love or hate the way i write, i don't count, it still matters.
for sam:
[this is an exchange for my jacket. i beg you please! give it back to me! hehe.]
a pessimist of nursing
do you really want the course you have taken? or are you just trapped in rationality of the situation? i bet you only take up nursing just because your parents either persuade you to take it or begged you to like it. or maybe, most of your friends took up Nursing and left you no choice but to imitate. Or i wage that you only take up nursing because of the money and a great chance that you could go abroad.
well, either which way, i know you know the fact why we all took up nursing. we all know the advantages and the disadvatages of this course. i have said that i am a pessimist of this course because to tell you guys honestly, i don't really want to take up this course. i only tried to take it for my parents and maybe for the sake of trying and maybe in time i may get the hang of liking it. but unfortunately, you can not fool yourself and tell yourself that you want something even if the answer is very obvious. it is not the matter of i not liking the course, or i not wanting the advantages i can get from nursing like the fact that i could earn great deal of money, the opportunity to go to other country, and the fact that i could have a title as a nurse, and also not because of the disadvantages and toughness of the course where in you have to compete with gazillion "nurse wannabes." But because my heart doesn't belong to it and i no longer feel the eagerness to pursue this course anymore.
i am not a quiter. but i most consider my self as "realizer." i am not discouraging you guys in taking up nursing, i am just simply using my self as an instrument for you guys to reflect if you really wanted this course or if you'd standby the decision you have started. i am also telling you, do NOT fool yourselves. know what you want and standby it. maybe nursing isn't for me, but also don't neglect the fact that maybe nursing is really for you guys. all i am trying to say is wake up and know where your heart really is and know what your heart really desire.
there. i made you one already. kahit minadali ko na. hehe. just ask me on how to deliver it nicely kung gusto mo lang. i am giving you the freedom to annotate it. add whatever you might wanna add. and don't forget to credit me... haha. just kidding:)
ciao and good luck!
You are everything i wanted,
and more...