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Tuesday, May 20, 2008
can't think of any 8:00 PM
it has been a while since i last wrote. i really really have no time, but since CAS classes are over, i'd have extra time to contemplate and i guess, write. i have tons of interesting experience this past few weeks. some really made me feel splendid and of course some fizzled me in some sense, but there is no need for further elaboration.
so, i still feel this weird emotion. i feel like sooner or later i'd be in some unfamiliar niche where in i have to once again adapt. but the thing that really some what sadden me most is that i'd really miss most of the people i had already been with for about two years already, especially my marelicious Yen Ling and, my two best buddies, Xoxo and Punch who had always been there especially when i really needed someone to give me some serious and straight-shoot scolding and counseling. i'd really really miss them.
lately i've done some stupid things again. i never really meant to do it and besides i know it would just complicate things again and again and again. i've tried so hard. i get the part where in i have to have intense disciplining but the thing that i can never do is avoid some things that's already in my system. effin' bull crap. i told my self that i'll get rid of everything that makes my life a living hell but what if some stuffs are not in my hand anymore? WTF 'm i suppose to do?! some inevitable crap. do destiny really exist? i don't think so, all i know is that there are convincing reasons why things happen. so whatever it is... it better be effin' good. and if ever destiny really does exist, fuck it. it's a big time nuisance.
so what's the thing that would make me feel better?
well...
let me borrow Coelho books, especially the once i've not read yet.
and and and...
i want cool piano piece (lately fund of playing piano)
GREETINGS:
belated happy birthday:
DENIS ESTEBAN (may 8)
BIEN LERUM (may 11)
SHEILA MARIE SALUT (may 12)
CARMELA BORABIEN (may 16)
advance happy birthday:
FRITZ OLASO (may 22)
GINA ESPINA (may 22)
and me! yeyzi! [smug]
good luck on our capping my dear batch mates!
You are everything i wanted,
and more...