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Sunday, May 4, 2008
randomness 11:33 PM
i friggin'can't explain what i felt when i've read the blog of someone. what the hell? why do i always have to go into some place at the wrong time, i don't know if it's just a coincidence or what. so yah i dunno if it affected me because there is no official ending or what-so-ever you call it. urgh. you intrigued of what i've read? see this:
ouh well, i do miss julian...
and it so happened that todays the date he entered my life...coincidence...
see, i never forget...because i treasure.
but dont fret, ive no plans/thoughts whatsoever for anything...
(if you wanna read the complete post, click joanne on the other linkage at the left side under give them some love too. it was posted on may 02, 2008. so there.)
why do i suddenly miss him?!?
hell jhoi! what the hell? enough already!
crap-holy. i know, life is being so hard for me. the month of may is such an interesting month as any for me. it was when he came into my life too. the day before my birthday. urgh. i need to stop this thing. i have to let things fall into its place. i am tired, they're tired, all of us are tired. i'd let time un-complicate everything.
so yah, i cried a while ago with no very particular reason, i guess everyone has this sudden urge to release some shit. i mean you know, crappy sappy shits. i dunno if it was because of the songs in my playlist, the letter i have just read, the quietness of this afternoon, or the things that makes me so weak like the memories of my past. whatever the reason is, darn, it really made me blurt every single emotions i have. atleast i feel much much better now.
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i'm getting tired of same routine every week. i demand change. all i do is bone up or if not procrastinate. oh i do that best. mondays and tuesdays all i do is memorize for some stupid demo which is really boggles my nerve. crazy. wednesdays to saturdays i go to school for same subjects which is really pointless and has no relevance to my chosen career for pete's sake! and by sunday, my only rest, i would prefer just to be home. sleep as much as i could. linger i bed as much as i can.
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so my dad asked me to give my sister, bianca, a retreat letter. so here it is...
To my dearest Bianca,
Hey there sister, it's been a while already since we've last seen each other and I want you to know that I miss my two most favorite sisters, you and Maricar. I know we never get the chance to be together always as before but I want you to know that I am just a text, an email, a call, and a chat away whenever you need me and whenever you need some serious scolding, I would be more than willing to do so. You know I'm kidding right? Well anyways, you're old already, before we were just kids who never stop arguing about some smalltime stuffs, but now you've grown into a very smart and pretty young lady. Bianx, you know I admire you for being hard working, as you always follow what mama has to make you do, patient, for you never complain, and most of all for being kind-hearted, for you never ask for anything but still give your everything, but baby you have to also know your limitations okay? But keep it up, keep being masunuren, masipag, and makulit. All we, daddy and i, ask of you is to take good care and guide our youngest sister Maricar, and follow Mama because she knows what is good for the both of you.
Now that it's your retreat, grab this opportunity to pray, relax, love, and enjoy every minute of being spiritually enlightened. Ask God of guidance in your chosen career, Ask Him for what you've always been wanting because as the passage goes: Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you [Matthew 7:7]. Enjoy my dearest sister, life is too good, savor every second of it. We are so lucky because God has given us wonderful parents who support us, give us everything and most of all listen, take credit, and appreciate everything that we can ever give in return.
So go on and make this day a date with our God. Always keep in mind that God is the only one we can always run to no matter what. He will always be the one that will welcome us with open arms. And with Him you'll never go astray. This is the day to build a strong relationship with Him so go and seize it.
Daddy, Jethro, I, Mommy, and Maricar congratulate you for this is a very significant day for our young lady. We love you and Jet, Daddy and I miss you so much.
Love,
Ate Jhoi
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ciao guys. good night and good morning.
You are everything i wanted,
and more...