philopopsicle once exclusive, now accessible to anyone. don't convince yourself that just because you have read some of my bloggerings, it doesn't necessarily follow that you already know me as a person. most of the words written here are just a burst of an immense emotion that needs to find a decent way of break through. i may not write well as you think you do but what the hell, it is my blog. and for those who appreciate, gratitude is my sincere shot.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
what a cliffhanger 10:55 AM
I WANT THE NEXT EPISODE OF ONE TREE HILL. Errr
this past few days, since have nothing else to do, i bum around, sleep, and watch series. i hate to admit it but gosh, i guess the things i've been watching is really getting into me. i cant remember on how many times these effin' series made me almost cry. i'm full of emotions that it easily affects me. i can't believe that i am that vulnerable lately when this past few days i seem pretty normal. but now i guess i'm fine. tomorrow's going to be the day when we normally add one to our previous age. i'm talking as if i'm really not that psyched up again. i guess that's what happen when you grow old, you tend to loss taste for everything and then you become dull and rigid. eew. i don't wanna be like my own folks. not now, not soon.
yesterday i talked to some friends like some in common situations. distaste for what is currently happening, some confusions, tormented with some inevitable and insolvable problems, frustrated and tired of somethings.
well, i know i could not find solutions nor answers for right now because i'm still in my struggle towards that, but all i can say is that we could use some letting loose from time to time, just to get off of some things that breaks us. just leave it alone for a moment, especially when you're near giving up. we could all use some escape. then again find hope elsewhere, and then use a help of a friend, just someone that will surely listen will do. then after that, go and do some ass kicking again. i know we'd all make through this. i know some time this next sem we'll wave at each other on our corridors as if nothing had happened.
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People write the things they can't say. - One Tree Hill
perfect reason that explains why i waste my time here. this is one of the few things that lighten me up whenever i'm all worn-out for the day. some say this is just another trash bin where in i place most of my crap. but at the same time i create this dump as my safe zone. somewhere i could be honest with my self, somehow talk and communicate with few others, and sometimes exaggerate things to add force to my every blow. but as what my friend stated: Don't believe you know me after reading entries from my blog - Ava. what i write is just a reflection of me, vague and obscure.
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wish list:
5. gift check for-some-cost-i-don't-really-care as long as i could shop and buy books, books, and books.
4. unlimited gas card/check or whatever that is, if it really exist, so i could go wherever on whenever i want.
3. ticket to go wherever i wanna go.
2. strawberry sorbet or strawberry daiquiri (that could get me so stoned) or panna cotta with some strawberries and creme fraiche, or curd full of strawberries. anything with strawberry.
and lastly,
1. i just really want some space, time, and peace so i could do whatever i wanna do, like eat what's said above or jump maybe or cry, or laugh or maybe even read, or paint. just like what i used to do when everything was still simple and basic.
jour de naissance heureux à moi!
and oh yah, i've changed my url, it's now: http://lesfraisesjaime.blogspot.com/
You are everything i wanted,
and more...