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Wednesday, June 18, 2008
i walked 10:21 PM
if you want your day to be more productive you better stop reading this entry.
[yes, from here.]
so i guess you're bored to be continuing.
and very hard-headed.
A FINAL CAVEAT
don't read!
so i did walk all day. i don't know what i got from doing it but sure i did not accomplish my agenda. i started walking at about 1:30 pm and went home at about 2:30, i know what i was doing was non sense. walking alone looking for a stupid slipper. (hope it doesn't sound like a rant) so i slept as i got home, never bothered whether i ate my lunch or not. so somebody called and told me that we have to get the result of that stupid swab test result. (now i am really ranting) i started looking for that effin' slipper again at about 4, i have texted all the possible people i could run to for help. (i bet they were all bugged and annoyed after) and i guess i have been to every wet market there is here in sucat. yup, i walked alone. i'm proud of my self actually, i was able to cross the street by myself with out getting hit or run-over. (some proud fool here) after walking for two hours, thank goodness it wasn't that hot, or should i say, thank goodness the sun wasn't that excruciatingly scourging, but i got this thingy, like a rash on my hand or somesort, due to sweat and dust from our polluted air. great. just what i was looking for. so i got so tired and decided to just buy the things which i need too, that is more of into my reach. i went to the nearest mall. looked for the slipper for the last time, but unfortunately, it wasn't there to be found, so i gave my self a favor and sat at some bench near where kids usually play. i just stared at the people passing, letting my mind drown out of its sanity, rested, sat, slouched, and lolled for a while. and while i was staring at these gorgeous flickering lights which is astoundingly hypnotizing, a cute little girl held me and awakened me from my oblivious state. all i could do was to smile at her and say nothing. she called me mommy and i did not know what to answer in return, the next thing i know her mother came and i end up chatting with her mother which made me miss my mom. and as soon as they left my mind never came back to its placidity again. so i decided to leave too. but as soon as i stepped out of the escalator there was this two guys who's so psyched to see their mom. they welcomed there mom with a very warm hug. i felt envious because i don't have my mom here to run to for a hug at time like this. times where in i'm neither happy nor sad. but most probably near being sad and frustrated. stressed about everything. stressed of school, stupid stuffs, stupid settings, stupid timings, and stupid people all joined together creating this crappy feeling. and so i walked away from the scene i fully witnessed. as i approached the exit there was this dude who is calling for his mother, shouting "mama" with this italian accent. so came up to a conclusion. i get it! my mom is far! and i miss her... [tears.]
i just miss her...
You are everything i wanted,
and more...