“In A Reverie”

Bernadette LERUM Maghirang

Laughs and bliss overcame my emotions
Even I, didn’t expect such a situation
Here, the sun was shining abruptly
While over there, the moon was howling serenely
That day was supposed to represent a perfect harmony

The news struck me like a rock
I didn’t believe it, but I was left shocked
I felt tears coming down my face
And my heart palpitated in many different ways

Will you know in your profound sleep
The way I can’t seem to stop myself to weep?
I was young and I didn’t care
But today I wished I’ve been fair

The way I ignored you and walked away
Made me realize my indifference was not okay
The way I spoke to you that day
Made me realize that there are still many words left to say

I was young and I didn’t know love
Now to ask for you, I’d have to look above
I am heartbroken that I will not be able to see
But I know you’re happy that you’re finally free

Don’t think I’ve forgotten:
Our ice cream days, the meals together,
your flawless dance moves, your incomparable looks,
your sympathy when I was forced to sleep outside,
And all the love I couldn’t repay

And the requests I didn’t obey

I came here…

Expecting the same affection from this family
How dull and sorrow. Where was their unity?
This was different because I didn’t feel anything
Their silence and ignorance towards me got me wishing

Wishing that I was back home
Because I’ve never felt so alone
I want to sit and talk to you
To be able to kiss you goodbye is what I need to do

I hope the dead can read my mind
Here are the confessions you will find
You are the greatest grandparent I know
Since you’ve finally decided to go on your reverie
How could my feelings possibly show?
Not when words can’t even classify
The message I was trying to identify

You are the best

We love you
Guide us in heaven
We shall feel your love and presence
Despite your heartbreaking absence...