philopopsicle once exclusive, now accessible to anyone. don't convince yourself that just because you have read some of my bloggerings, it doesn't necessarily follow that you already know me as a person. most of the words written here are just a burst of an immense emotion that needs to find a decent way of break through. i may not write well as you think you do but what the hell, it is my blog. and for those who appreciate, gratitude is my sincere shot.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
she's so afraid 4:11 PM
you know what is worst than not being able to sleep at night crying, with muffled mouth so as nobody can hear you and you're trying every position just to be able to pass the day with a rest? well i guess it is waking up feeling restless and so uninspired having your heart wanted to burst in tears and after that, you should swallow and take each and every day feeling weak and taking same reasons why you are walking away...
sleeping is already hard enough and to be addend by difficulty of eating because your tears gets into your way and adds to the salty taste of food which adds to my appetite loss plus, the food as swallowed goes back to my throat resisting its own nourishment. and that's not it, even breathing and smiling becomes harder...
sometimes i wish my heart is as hard as stone...
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she wanted him so bad but she is so weak to take everything that obviously makes him happy. she doesn't want him to change that is why she has less to tell. she wanted him for everything that he is but she's not sure if she could be the person to take it and have it. she wanted him to know that she is not turning her back at him, she's also always there for him but she has chosen to walk away facing towards him even if she's so weak to see everything. she's not so sure why but for sure it has something to do with love...
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cheerio my best friend...
You are everything i wanted,
and more...