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Saturday, June 19, 2010
Happy Dad's Day 4:31 PM
I knew that it's gonna be difficult for me especially my dad wouldn't be around most of these times now. But I never knew it's gonna be excruciating really. I'm starting to loathe my mother. Really. Sometimes I really don't even wanna think about her. She makes simplest things so hard for me. It's difficult than it is already and sometimes I just wanna stop and pause and cry my fucking ass out. She's really getting into my last freaking nerves. MOST OF THE TIMES I miss cramming home just to see my Daddy because he completes my day :( Now I don't even wanna go home really. Because even if you work your ass out and make the floor shine like a fucking mirror nothings gonna be good enough for her. Fucking exhausting. I also miss my daily conversation with my father wherein I tell him what happened to me all day and like wise and now I barely even talk to him and hide every experience with my mom because I wouldn't want him to worry and that's the last thing I would want to give my Dad… a head ache :( I also miss how I save my weekends to spend with my Daddy because now I just wanna be dead busy because there's nobody worth the time I could ever spend with the greatest friend… :'( I also miss eating with my Daddy because no matter how I don't like the food It makes me wanna spend the whole day in front of the table because there's nothing greater than spending it with my father just in front of me telling me something very valuable :( I just really miss my Daddy so much. And I wish I can do something so that I can hug and kiss him on this very special day :( I wish I could have spent more time before I left. I imagine how it would really help just to have him around. :(
And now, I am trying to contain everything even the most painful things because of my Daddy. I would do anything for my Dad. That's how he inspire my every being. I could take anything for my Dad. I just hope I could really spend this day with him just to motivate me… But for sure the greatness of his love for us will keep on burning. Never less. Never gonna fade.
And to the GREAT-EST FATHER
Happy DADDY's Day my Super Love
I love you so much. I will make up for your greatness…. One of these days :)
HAPPY FATHER's DAY TO ALL.
Hug them for as long as they're there :)
You are everything i wanted,
and more...